Lots of things have been happening…
and i wouldve updated it but i have no computer…
so until then… i’ll post everything thats been goin on…esp. my dreams.
getting crucial dreams lately…kinda scary.
Over the past few days Ive been comin across this word ” SHOUT”
I like that word
I listened to new Philly podcast about “shout to the Lord” and it was encouraging for me because I feel like I’m in a restricted conservative place at oicf… They’re not against it but it’s me.. That’s what I feel… Idk why…
But my church is good about being free so that’s why I like harvest renewal church…
So I just wanted to share because I hold back a lot but I want to declare Gods victory!
” shouting is not a personality thing it’s a faith thing”
Isaiah 58:1a
“Shout it aloud, do not hold back. Raise your voice like a trumpet.”
Omg! Finally in new York! Happy, yes!
But let me tell you… I had a toughhhh and rough day at the airport! I should write it now while I still have the negative feelings about delta… But i’m gonna calm myself down so I’ll write it later! I ant my post to be rated-13! Haha!actually i don’t think i’m angry at all..idk why…i just think they’re just so stupid so i’m more annoyed!
So anyways prior to going to ny…
I couldn’t sleep the night before cuz ppls texts and calls I’ve been receiving all about goin to newyork! Not to mention I headed to bed At 9pm and ended up sleeping at midnight! After I slept for a good 3 hours I was heart pounding awaken by my dream…
So my dream goes like this.. Skip blah blah blah… I ended up being with 2ne1( Korean female group) just following them around and what they go through in life… After chilling with them a little bit I really needed to go use the restroom ( think I really needed to go in real life) so I excused myself and headed out the door… BUT on that moment TOP opened the door, and of course I was in shockkkkk!!! I felt like a little girl who couldn’t do anything when encountering her fav. Man of all time! My heart was so happy that it seemed like it was gonna POP!!! And my heart was pounding and that’s how I honestly woke up… Still with my heart pounding! And I couldn’t go back To sleep so I really tried to force myself to sleep! But I had to get up at 6am anyways for my freaking PRAXIS test! I hope I pass or atleast I need to pass!!! But reason was kinda boring and hard for me.. Please I think i can comprehend better I’d u spoke to me in tongues than reading those useless readings! Anyhow to myself feel better I’m gonna say I think I passed math with flying colors! So yea meeh! As London tipton says it!
So here in ny went out the first day! Pretty cool, enjoyed it here and there!!
Now it’s the second day… Wonder wats gonna happen!!!
Tschus!
Ps sorry if there’s missed words or completely wrong word.. Doin this thru my phone!
hello beings!!!
it’s still january….not a GREAT beginning for me…but i hope i have a GREAT ending…
i’m at the library now…just typing away…
there’s so much things to do…
but i have no resource to accomplish it!
first of all, i need hella load of money. where i can i get ‘em?
i’ve been tryin to find a job but its kinda hard when you don’t have transportation [once again i realize how much better and upgraded Korea is compared to here, why am i here? dang it!]
and some of things on craigslist seems so fake and lame! [i'm havin a deja vu right now]..i think they need to do a better job on examing wat are fake job posts!! frustration… i feel like i owe everyone thousands of dollars…which i do..i’m in seeeerious debt! please…just take me to jail!
coming back to virginia seems like…i came back to reality…i’m so sad… i don’t think i’m getting happier here. well only it comes to Jesus! and with his help… I KNOW ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE…SO GOD…PLEASE GIVE ME PATIENT AS I WAIT FOR EVERYTHING! and i get happy when i see my friends here…cuz all my stress goes away…
so because of all the stress…i just wanna freakin watch kdrama [because i wanna get sucked into a world that i know its soooo fake!]…
so yeah…i’m at the library…i was supposed to study for my praxis that i’m takin this week but i forgot my book so yeah.. i guess i have to go home!
wat else should i write….?? hmmmmm…..
i feel like my English is gettin worse and worse! first of all, i can’t even write…and now i can’t even speak,… i speak like a fob with heavy accent…ahhh…wat is wrong with me… i’m not even that old…and my being is downgrading already…
so peace out. until i get happy.
-today i felt like being emo. 
update:
i think i’m been feelin really emo because i havn’t gone takin pictures. :< where can i go to take pics?? i mean i’m in richmond..where else can i go that i havn’t gotten to tak pics here??? i need a fresh new surrounding/environment.. as long as its not richmond.
Wow! I can’t believe its finally 2010! I’m not sure if I’m happy or sad! Let me do a fast recap of this yr…
All I remember doing In 2009….
Was playing! Seeeriously from Jan-April I didn’t go to school but did part time… So other than that I just played! Oh not to mention it was the begginning of this yr that I discovered and started to listen and watch Korean songs and Korean variety shows!!! It’s been a successful one yr to get intouch with my Korean media!
From April- November I was on vacation!!!! So long… But it was worth it seeing my guam people!!! Really missed them!
I have a feeling I’m not gonna see them for a long time again! But I’m not done yet… I’m gonna go see one more Guam friend next week.. One of my good friend who I havnt seen for like 2-3 years!!! Miss her so much!!
Other note of my life…. I have slipped in my spiritual life… I was a little bit spiritually dried for a long time! But God has not forgotten me and has always reminded me that He was always there when I heart started to cry for him! and for that I am once aGain very thankful that my God is such a wonderful loving and patient God!
It was very good to stArt out my yr with Him! I hope to keep it that wAy!!!!
As for 2010
I see new things comin but no more play time… Which I am aittle bit sad about…..
But other than thAt PLEASE SUPRISE ME 2010!!
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메리 크리스마스!!!
Today I can honestly say… Didn’t feel
Much Christmas spirit
But overall it was a good day
Ely and I went to eat our first meal at pho so 1
And ended up watching 4 Christmas and inglorious bastards… It was good
We ended up taking a sweet nap
After we woke up we prepared Christmas dinner and of course ended up just like thanksgiving dinner…all good
After dinner we went to the movie gallery again to rent out Ugly truth and Terminator!
As we watched some more movies we started our gingerbread house modeling.. And let me tell u IT WAS HARD!!! But all good!
Anyhow I wish everyone had a great day, ESP you, Jesus! Happy 생일!!!
사랑해 everybody!
there’s so many pics that i wanna upload and share…but…
now is not the time…
but the burden is getting bigger…
so i just might end up not doin it…
Hello everybody! or… Hello Nobody!!
I was gonna blog long time ago..but too little time..sorry… and lazy got to me!
Yes, I’m back in Va. came back November 25th at 10:25pm!
Is it good to be back? Yes! Well lets say I was very excited to come back.
However, since all the fun things are over [thanksgiving] is kinda boring here.
I’m just stuck in this house…doing nothing.
I hate driving [or lets say....i have no desire to drive or get my license] but i really feel transportation handicapped.
Now, I’m wondering…why can’t VA have subway or cheap buses that takes you to the big/common places in nova, and even around the neighborhood! I believe we’re paying taxes…so where’s all the $$$ goin into?? atleast provide buses for us! funny how i’m writing this, but in this very moment I feel like there’s buses already! and i just didn’t look into. but anyways… i think they’re should be subway stations from nova to richmond…too far? i think not.
anyways,,,there’s so many pics i want to post up…but why is it “so not fun” uploading pics! ??
i’m so tired…
my sleeping pattern is totally messed up! wat to do?!?!
somebody save me. somebody play with me.
i have so much things i wanna write…but i’m just not in a bloggin mode.
i’m just writing..because there is nothing else to do.
sorry to say Virginia, BUT I MISS KOREA!!! I miss the freedom to walk anywhere..everywhere… but sadly, there’s nothing to see in va when you take a walk. or atleast…not around this place…
if i never think about driving..i would totally wanna live in korea! wahoo!
went to my first real concert here in korea….thanks to my sister who’s a HUGE FT ISLAND FAN! my job was to take pictures…but of course, my heart had to fall for these boys. it was a fun concert. it was a great picture-taking experience…
so Nancy got seats on the ground floor…which was cool. However, as the concert started…I started to notice empty seats…So, I thought to myself…”Since the ticket price is all the same whether I seat here [in the middle] or in the front, MIND AS WELL SIT IN THE FRONT! So, I moved up…sneaky..sneaky… Towards the end of the concert…everyone on the ground floor all got up so I GOT UP TOOOO! As I got up, my body started to move closer towards the stage..the next thing I knew…I was up front, FRONT ROW! It allowed me to take great pIcs!!
I ended up takin lots of pictures… but not that much since “no picture taking allowed” so i had to take pictures carefully and had to be sneaky sneaky…
some of them came out blurry so i had to delete them or do somethin with ‘em. i hate blurry pictures. anyhow…hope you enjoy ft island pics.
*i couldn’t get pics of drummer…cuz i’m short and the drum set was coverin him the whole time!
i got way more pics but thats all i wanna upload. hope you enjoyed it.
since i attended their concert…i am officially a fan. they were sooooooooo freakin cute. i’m not gonna lie. so young and cute..and talented.. not to mention even CNBLUE—>pretty awesome!! love ‘em too!
* only pics i have of ‘em. so sad…the staff was right behind me the whole time…so i couldn’t take pics!!! as you can tell it was blurry because i tried to take it fast..didn’t work out that well.
i just wanna say…
I give mad PROPS to everyone who blogs with their honest thoughts and feelings.
As for me, there’s still a wall “to be careful”
At first, I wanted to blog to express my feelings, thoughts, or wateva’s happening right at this moment.
but i realized….i can’t. i shouldn’t. i wouldn’t. or maybe i shouldn’t.
why>? I don’t know why.
I can probably tell a person or two. but thats about it. no one else.
people who i can trust [but sometimes, i know who has a big mouth or just slips things out-gotta be careful]
trial and error tryin to trust people.
maybe sometimes i’m scared of receiving criticism or getting blame, or “your so stupid” …when all i need in the moment is support,.
sometimes…my mind plays with me too much…that i don’t know if i’m in denial or not. [i really gotta pray-the only thing i can do]
at times…when i go thru big questions about myself…i really can’t speak of it to anyone except GOD.
i can only talk to God. with honest thoughts. honest tears. honest questions. honest issues. honest sins.
but…
God, please help me to be an honest person to everyone. Help me to be honest. Not that I lie to everyone all the time, but I’ll slightly go under the raider, or beat around the bushes. Help me to be honest especially with you.
thank you…for understanding and helping, always. always. always. your love never fails.
