there’s so many pics that i wanna upload and share…but…
now is not the time…
but the burden is getting bigger…
so i just might end up not doin it…
Hello everybody! or… Hello Nobody!!
I was gonna blog long time ago..but too little time..sorry… and lazy got to me!
Yes, I’m back in Va. came back November 25th at 10:25pm!
Is it good to be back? Yes! Well lets say I was very excited to come back.
However, since all the fun things are over [thanksgiving] is kinda boring here.
I’m just stuck in this house…doing nothing.
I hate driving [or lets say....i have no desire to drive or get my license] but i really feel transportation handicapped.
Now, I’m wondering…why can’t VA have subway or cheap buses that takes you to the big/common places in nova, and even around the neighborhood! I believe we’re paying taxes…so where’s all the $$$ goin into?? atleast provide buses for us! funny how i’m writing this, but in this very moment I feel like there’s buses already! and i just didn’t look into. but anyways… i think they’re should be subway stations from nova to richmond…too far? i think not.
anyways,,,there’s so many pics i want to post up…but why is it “so not fun” uploading pics! ??
i’m so tired…
my sleeping pattern is totally messed up! wat to do?!?!
somebody save me. somebody play with me.
i have so much things i wanna write…but i’m just not in a bloggin mode.
i’m just writing..because there is nothing else to do.
sorry to say Virginia, BUT I MISS KOREA!!! I miss the freedom to walk anywhere..everywhere… but sadly, there’s nothing to see in va when you take a walk. or atleast…not around this place…
if i never think about driving..i would totally wanna live in korea! wahoo!
went to my first real concert here in korea….thanks to my sister who’s a HUGE FT ISLAND FAN! my job was to take pictures…but of course, my heart had to fall for these boys. it was a fun concert. it was a great picture-taking experience…
so Nancy got seats on the ground floor…which was cool. However, as the concert started…I started to notice empty seats…So, I thought to myself…”Since the ticket price is all the same whether I seat here [in the middle] or in the front, MIND AS WELL SIT IN THE FRONT! So, I moved up…sneaky..sneaky… Towards the end of the concert…everyone on the ground floor all got up so I GOT UP TOOOO! As I got up, my body started to move closer towards the stage..the next thing I knew…I was up front, FRONT ROW! It allowed me to take great pIcs!!
I ended up takin lots of pictures… but not that much since “no picture taking allowed” so i had to take pictures carefully and had to be sneaky sneaky…
some of them came out blurry so i had to delete them or do somethin with ‘em. i hate blurry pictures. anyhow…hope you enjoy ft island pics.
*i couldn’t get pics of drummer…cuz i’m short and the drum set was coverin him the whole time!
i got way more pics but thats all i wanna upload. hope you enjoyed it.
since i attended their concert…i am officially a fan. they were sooooooooo freakin cute. i’m not gonna lie. so young and cute..and talented.. not to mention even CNBLUE—>pretty awesome!! love ‘em too!
* only pics i have of ‘em. so sad…the staff was right behind me the whole time…so i couldn’t take pics!!! as you can tell it was blurry because i tried to take it fast..didn’t work out that well.
i just wanna say…
I give mad PROPS to everyone who blogs with their honest thoughts and feelings.
As for me, there’s still a wall “to be careful”
At first, I wanted to blog to express my feelings, thoughts, or wateva’s happening right at this moment.
but i realized….i can’t. i shouldn’t. i wouldn’t. or maybe i shouldn’t.
why>? I don’t know why.
I can probably tell a person or two. but thats about it. no one else.
people who i can trust [but sometimes, i know who has a big mouth or just slips things out-gotta be careful]
trial and error tryin to trust people.
maybe sometimes i’m scared of receiving criticism or getting blame, or “your so stupid” …when all i need in the moment is support,.
sometimes…my mind plays with me too much…that i don’t know if i’m in denial or not. [i really gotta pray-the only thing i can do]
at times…when i go thru big questions about myself…i really can’t speak of it to anyone except GOD.
i can only talk to God. with honest thoughts. honest tears. honest questions. honest issues. honest sins.
but…
God, please help me to be an honest person to everyone. Help me to be honest. Not that I lie to everyone all the time, but I’ll slightly go under the raider, or beat around the bushes. Help me to be honest especially with you.
thank you…for understanding and helping, always. always. always. your love never fails.
Today, I woke up from a dream that almost seemed real.
But I know it wasn’t.
I had a dream today…that I went back to VA. Somebody/People threw me a surprise party. I was so happy that I was back, I saw almost the whole crew of VCU people haging around…even the ppl i never hung out with in my life…but jsut because i know them by face and name, they were all there!
but at the same time I didn’t have a good feeling about this surprise party…[i won't tell you why...suspense]
anyhow…as i was catching up with ppl..i was in and out of the room.
During, my absence in the room…my NIKON D40 BABY WAS SHATTERED INTO PIECES…
Since, I got so sad, I demanded ppl to tell me who broke my camera!!! But no one answered…so I figured, maybe i shouldn’t know..just because I don’t wanna hate that person…so i told them not to tell me. it’s all good.
So, I went to another room to cry. T_T
and then it continues…but i won’t tell wat happens….[suspense?] for me know, and you not to care.
What does VA have in stores for me this year?
tuesday. tuesday.
i think i have finally decided when to leave Korea—December 7th, 2009. [can't wait...]
Yesterday, I finished my subbing part time job. It was a good experience. I lov’d my middle school kids…they were so cool. I wish I had the time to get to know them just a little bit more. I have failed to teach those kids for a week! MY BAD! However, I was so-not-nice to my elementary kids… I wouldn’t want them again. 
Well, I don’t know if it was MY BAD or they just wanted their teacher back cuz i was being mean. WAS I SUPPOSE TO TELL THEM THEY HAD A TEST??? I believe it was written on their syllabus. But overall, the school, kids, teachers, workers [i wanted to hook up one worker with nancy...but i didn't know his name, age, or status... i chatted for few seconds one day and rarely saw him again...so since I've failed...lets just say he was SO TAKEN], and everything was good. 
i wish i could work there. not to mention i did get paid $$$. time to buy my ticket to VA.
So, for the month of November I decided to go on a diet. I’m a bit overweight according to the Korean scale my sister bought. I need to lose about 5kg. 
so sad. i’m officially FAT in this country. Therefore, I decided not to eat heavy dinner but maybe some fruits? I think I really need to join a dance class for my exercise. I just can’t seem to wake up so early…I always wake up at 10am or after!
Yesterday’s weather was no joke -FREEZING-
I gotta go buy some gloves…but i havn’t seen any yet! where are you gloves???????
another random info- i just found out yesterday that one of my friend writes for allkpop. i thought it was hilarious. just because it seems like i’m just reading his blog. allkpop has officially dropped in pride for me. i still read it tho. keep on writing…
I have to get ready for work. another cold day comin at me.
wat to eat.
i’m kinda hungry now.
sometimes. i feel so obligated to write/update my page.
but
sometimes. i feel so lazy as a potato.
there’s so many things i WANT. i just want it!!! i don’t NEED IT. there’s only one thing in life that i NEED everyday—JESUS. i just want it. but there are times….when i need to be careful…cuz in my head my WANTs turn into “I REALLY NEED IT!” but i know i don’t need it. i can still live without it.
today, while sitting down in dongdaemun, I wrote a whole list of things I want… but i know its all psychological. sitting down and lookin at ppl, makes me wanna buy clothes, shoes, purse, and other miscellaneous items. if you keep seein ‘em…you want ‘em.
oppps..its been awhile again… things been happening left and right..and couldn’t quite keep up with blogging…
so as of right now…enjoy some pics i took at the soccer game..here in korea.
The crazy corean fans.
The game has started…
GOAL!!!!!!!.
the korean team.
mini me and me…
tata…for now. update it later…when i’m bored…or have the TIME>
who’s teasing meeeeeeee?
Lately, I’ve been quite lazy on my celeb hunt. haha…
anyways… its such a tease that i’m seeing randomly celebs…that i’m not a HUGE FAN of…
[when i say see...i mean...see like 5 -1 step away from me...but i pass by them...thinking "OH its ___, but wheres the other ppl"]
such as:
- -changmin and seolong [2am]–i’m thinking i should care about them now…
- -changsung [2pm]
- -eugene [ses]
- -kang hodong…
So….who’s teasing me?…why can’t I see ppl i want to seeeee. please.
I wonder if my list will get longer…
ps. woo young doesn’t count cuz he was 5+ steps away from me..and i only got to see his face for 2 seconds.
its funny…how i don’t get excited at all when i see them [they're still celebs, right]
but i guess if you don’t care…you just don’t care.
